Born on 21st september 2010 at 1006hrs, you weigh 3.2kg and your height was 52cm. Oh my, delivering you wasn’t as easy as I thought. You were sleeping throughout labour and when you slide out of me, you were still in deep sleep! Here’s a video of you seconds after you came out of mummy.

We brought you home the next day and instantly our lives changed. Amazing how a tiny tiny baby like you can turn our lives around. Mummy didn’t sleep at all the first 2 nights. You wake up every half hour. Both mummy and daddy were so new to parenthood, we didn’t know what you wanted and we thought you were always hungry. Mummy’s milk took 4 days to come in and daddy was starting to worry about you not getting enough. The first few days was tough. Mummy felt so sad, like I was unable to nourish you with what you need, but I didn’t give up. I persevered and bear the pain of cracked and sore nipples. It hurts like a $#%$&#*^(^!*^%*!#%*#%!)(@_$_)#%_$!

Honestly though, if it weren’t for the support I get from aunt dee and daddy, I wouldn’t have been able to do it. Although Daddy were worried for you, he never stopped encouraging me, he did everything I asked him to and even went out to buy creams and lotions to ease the pain mummy was going through. He deserves a big wet kiss from you!

Do you know that Daddy even did all of the work at home and all I had to do was attend to you? He didn’t let me do anything else; he even prepared breakfast for me every morning. Oh how I miss those days! I felt like a queen!

So anyway, on the 4th day when milk starts coming in, all you do all day everyday is feed and sleep. You are a fuss free baby, an angel! I had to wake you up for milk at night and no one believes me when I tell them this.

 By the 2nd week, you were pretty much used to the routine. Wake up in the morning, feed, strip, play, shower, feed and nap. You HATE getting changed and you would scream bloody murder every single day when it’s time to dress you. Very stressful for both mummy and daddy you know?! :p

 3rd week, you are more settled. I still can’t tell what your cries meant and most of the time when you cry, I feed you, tried to put you to sleep and you started crying again. Only to realise that you’ve pooed a whole lot! After diaper change, you will *almost* immediately go to sleep. That’s how easy you are. Basically, there is always a reason why you are crying.

Oh and how can I forget about the swaddling problem I had with you! You HATE to have your movements controlled, so you fight to get out of the swaddle till your face turn blue! I gave up many times and tried to let you go to sleep without the swaddle, but you would end up slapping yourself with your hands and you won’t be able to sleep. So what did I do? I swaddle you when you are half asleep. You were tricked darling! I placed the swaddle in your cot, and when you started to get drowsy, I put you in your cot and I swaddle you real tight. Easy peasy! But of course, by the time you wake up, your swaddle would look like this.

For now, I can’t stand to be apart from you. I am really afraid that I’d miss out on something, so when I went for shoot, I brought you along. Of course, I also brought Nana along to take care of you while I work. Not sure how it will be for the months to come when I need to work. Let’s not think about it for now, shall we?

So there you go…a whole month of being with you.

A year of waiting, 9 months of carrying and 18 hours of labour is nothing…now that I have you. You are all that matters now, my little Shanshine! Looking forward to the many months to come, insyaallah.

I love you,

Mummy.